Sunday, June 7, 2009

More than just berries...

What a day...seriously, was there a full moon out? The moon looked full so I'm going to guess that it was a full moon (sometimes it gets tricky near full moon day with a smidgen sliver missing...you know what I mean??). Big wee one woke up on the complete wrong and sassistic (that's the sassy side of the bed...I made that up :) ) side of the bed. Attitude out the wazoo today and we had so much planned! I was hoping for a fantastic Saturday filled with lots of fun things, but sadly, our fun times turned into not so fun times.

We woke up in the morning, get dressed and met Mimi at the North Square Farmers' Market for what was going to be a delightful morning of muffins, coffee, jerk chicken and kids activities...including planting a flower and getting faces painted. We bougth the ingredients we needed to make the most delic salad, but everything else was an argument...including getting Big wee one's face painted.

We made it home around lunch time, had a few moments to chill before heading to a birthday party. And that's where it all went downhill. Big wee one just could not get a grip! She wanted to jump in the bounce house, but then she didn't. She wanted to eat lunch, but then she didn't and then she did. She wanted her bathing suit, but didn't want to go to the car to get it...just whining out the wazoo! So, I packed up our stuff and in a fit of rage the three of us left. I apologized to the hostess and we went home. I was sooooo angry! I could not believe that she was being so bratty!

I cried when I got home and Big wee one was sent to her room after she apologized to Little wee one for ruining her good time and they both took a 3 hour nap.

During that three hour time I sat in complete silence. I couldn't think or eat or watch tv...I just needed to regroup. (It didn't take me the whole 3 hours...more like an hour) :)

Once I felt a little better, I downloaded this kit
by Amy Sumrall from http://www.thedigichick.com/ (do I totally sound like a commercial or what??) and was all set to work on a page about strawberry picking, but instead was sucked in by this picture of Big wee one
and felt I needed to document how I was feeling about her at that very moment. How not everyday is peaches and cream and lovey dovey. How angry she makes me, but at the same time how much I love her. So I did this LO...
and the journaling reads:

"Oh, small child of mine...we are going to have some rough patches while we’re both “growing up”. I love you so much and you make me so angry at the same time. I don’t understand how something so beautiful and sweet can be so frustrating and aggitating. You are my puzzle. The one who is going to keep me on my toes and push me to the limits.

At the same time, you’ll need me to comfort you while you push me away. Hold you while you are so mad at me; and I'll listen to all the times that you tell me I’m not nice or that I’m mean. It won’t change how much I love you, or how angry I get with you, it will just go to show that love conguers all. You love me and I love you...

Who are we kidding? Life wouldn’t be near as thrilling if you weren’t throwing a huge dramatic fit, or refusing to say “Hi” to a friend or getting angry at me for not letting you do something all by yourself. One day when you grow up, you’ll realize that we are a lot a like and we are both very stubborn ladies. We want what we want, when we want it...no if’s, and’s or but’s about it. It’s part of being a Hadley and a Flohr. It’s who you are and I hope that some day you channel that stubborn energy into something amazing and make your mommy a lot of money. I love you Rid, even when it’s hard to."

Now I want to document the strawberry picking...be on the lookout for that LO soon :)
Here's the strawberry picking LO...little sweeties :)

2 comments:

Jenny said...

It always seems like the days we plan to be so much fun turn out so not that way. Our kids always have a different plan for us and sometimes it's just easier to go with their flow. Love the scrap! It's so sweet and true and she will appreciate it when she grows up and her own little wee ones.

Julie said...

Girl we have ALL been there! Motherhood is definitely and Adventure! Some days are great and others I just want to lock myself in the bathroom! LOL!

Love the LOs!